Today

I woke up with this thought this morning. What if in life we had a remote control that we could use? We could fast forward or rewind, maybe just pause for a minute, or we could even choose the channel - comedy, romance, drama...I think many times we live our lives that way...wishing, hoping, waiting on something bigger or better, or something different. Contentment is not a word that is used much. What if we lived in each moment, enjoying all that it has to offer us, not worrying about the past or the future, or not wanting to go back to rewind a moment that we wanted to redo, or fast forward past something.

"Today is the day the Lord has made, Let us rejoice and be glad in it. (Psalm 118:24)" God created 24 hours in a day for a reason. He could have made it 26 or 22, I don't know why there is 24 hours, but that is all. Each one of us has 24 hours in one day. Each moment, each hour counts, and has significance. Life isn't about going back to the past or wanting an hour to pass by. Life doesn't guarentee to be easy. We can learn from the good and the bad times. We can learn from our past, but we shouldn't hold on so tightly to our past. We should look forward with eyes fixed on Jesus, trusting in Him; knowing that He has everything in control.

To everything there is a season
A time for every purpose under the sun. A time to be born and a time to die;
a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted; a time to kil and a time to heal. A time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance. A time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to lose and a time to seek; a time to rend and a time to sew; a time to keep silent and a time to speak; a time to love and a time to hate; a time for war and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Life is full of unexpected surprises, and each season is different.

So What if Life had a remote control? I think we would lose the sweetness and beauty that life has to offer - the beauty, the pain, the good and bad times. We would be so fixed on the idea of a "redo" or of moving forward, that we would forget to maybe just "Live" Today I want to live in all that God has given me today. I don't know all the day has to offer but I do know that God has offered me something...LIFE...and I want to live in HIS Fullness today and for the rest of my life; but I am just going to focus on TODAY!

Faithful

Faithful
By Brooke Fraser

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
I wave my arms 'round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here
But the comfort of you near is what I long for


Chorus
When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear everyword I pray
And i want you more than i want to live another day
And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful

All the folly of the past, though I know it is undone
I still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right
So i whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tounge,
knowing you're the only one who knows me
You know me


Bridge 
Show me how I should live this
Show me where I should walk
I count this world as loss to me
You are all I want
You are all I want

Surrender

Lately, I have felt so distant from God.  I know that He is always present, always with me.  It has been such a hard season: trying to figure out what God wants me to do, where I am supposed to be, who I am supposed to be.  There have been so many questions, so many doubts, fears, etc. I have relied so heavily upon myself, and placed all the focus and attention on my self - thinking that I can handle it all.

See, I always feel like I need to be in control.  I want to handle things on my own, and it is hard for me to completely trust God, and rely on Him.  One reason is because He doesn't always do things the way I would like them to be done, many times it is not the timing I would like, and it is not how I would do it.  But why do I doubt Him.  He is God.  He is in control of it all whether I like it or not. Why don't I turn to Him when I am in most need.

I recently began reading Abba's Child by Brennan Manning.  What an incredible book.  I have only gotten a few pages into the book, because there is so much to absorb and take in; it is speaking right to my heart for where I am at this time in my life.  He says "We cannot accept love from another human being when we do not love ourselves, much less accept that God could possibly love us.  God loves who we really are - whether we like it or not.  God calls us to come out of hiding."

I have a hard time loving myself, and can be so critical of who I am.  I look at myself in the mirror, and see someone that I don't like.  I want to be different.  I can't accept the fact that God loves me.  How could He love someone like me?  What does He see in me?  But He does.  He loves me despite me.  God loves who I REALLY Am.  He loves the person He created.  the person He made in HIS Image.  I am HIS.  He wants the best for me.  He wants to see me walk in HIS Ways, and love who He made me to be.  He Alone is God.  I need to accept myself for who God made me to be.  I have to stop looking at myself, and begin looking at Him.  I desire to walk in His ways, and to live out who He made me to be.

Surrender
Leaving it all at the door
Giving it all over to God, and desiring more
Desiring to Walk in His Ways
In Everything I do, For All My Days
He is Faithful
He is Merciful
He is Gracious
Each step I take, Every move I make
Forming more and more into His Likeness
He is my desire
So I will surrender All I am, For All He Is
Surrender