Known by God...

Do you ever have those moments when you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are known and loved by God. And in that moment his words are so tender and real, and he is so tangible. These are priceless moments. Moments when I know that God is real, and that he truly does love me. One of these moments happened to me this last week, on my birthday.

It was on Sunday, and I was getting ready for church doing my makeup and my hair, and had Jason Upton playing on my laptop. Jason was going into some spontaneous worship and was singing what God had laid upon his heart. Now, granted this was recorded at least a few years ago, but God really spoke to me through this. Now I have to back up just a bit...

This last year has been one of the hardest years for me spiritually and because of that has been difficult personally. I have been struggling with a lot of issues and things pertaining to God, and my identity. God has always been close to me since I was a little girl, and this last year I tried my best to run away from him, but He wouldn't let me go. I have felt his grip and his hand on my life, and as much as I dindn't want to I knew I could never run away from him. His love is unconditional, and his grace is sufficient...

So here I am getting ready and Jason Upton begins to sing these words...
"I hear the father saying you have sensed rejection. He's watched you crying on your knees. So many times you've been alone child. I've been crying out to you...Do you have hear the rejection of my heart oh child. I am a father longing to be with my children. Can you hear me crying out...Come my BELOVED...
I never meant you harm my child...Will you stop rejecting me and run to your father...run to your father, my arms are outstretched. So come. I am waiting for you..."

The Lord has completely redeemed and restored me. He has given me a passion for Him and to love him with all my heart, soul, mind and strenght. He is ABBA father. He gives me the peace and contentment I so long for. He satisfies every desire and longing I have. He provides...I am known completely by God and he speaks so gently and tenderly. He knows just what to say, and those words that were song that day I believe were a gift for me from God. He was calling me to himself, and opening hims arms for me to run to...